How do I take care of myself? What do I want? These are good questions. I feel the pressure, inward aggression, the desire for something different.. I don't know, I feel like a total failure. In and out of jobs and stupid relationships, or thoughts thereof. How do I self-actualize? Maintain work? Be more productive? I don't have the answers, pulling so much shit outta me when I feel like crawling into a dark hole all together. Fuck. Life is too damn difficult. But I keep moving, tho I want to give up.. Badly.