I'm trying, do to things right. To do things right. I need that assurance, maybe time will give. Hoping things work out on the job front. Really aching to have some money. To be accepted and even cared after, tho it scares me, feeling inadequate.. I don't know. It's too much pressure, it's like I can't catch everything that's up in the air. I don't wanna give up. Don't like the way things are. People with money don't know how fucking lucky they are.